MADE IN CHINA
This was from a different blog I tried to start...but for some reason I could not add photos, sooo I am merging it into my normal blog....
We decided to begin our family. Many readers will be thinking *FINALLY* A couple years ago we accidently tried to begin making our family, but God decided it was not quite time for it... This time we around we are hoping God will bless us with a *Mini-Us*. Most likely if you are reading this then we are progressing well.
We decided to keep this blog as a way to keep everyone up to date, since we have chosen to keep this a secret for a while.... This way of something does go wrong we will not have to share our sad news. We realize the support of family and friends is nice to have, but responding to our friends who did not learn of the sad news is awkward for both us and them. That is how it was last time.... Many times I had to say "Oh, sorry we miscarried... I am doing okay... Yes, maybe next time... Yeah, maybe it was not meant to be...." Sooo we decided we wanted to avoid that... Of course nothing is certain till that moment that I hold this miracle in my arms. I am completely amazed at the process of 'making a baby'. It is truly a miracle any human is born. I must share my thoughts on this, because for so long I have taken for granted the birth process, regarding human life. I assumed I could have children whenever... as if time would somehow wait on me. I know this is not as true as I wanted to assume. We are having problems again this time around... Let me begin the story properly.
I WANTED A SUMMER BABY. Nov. was the last month we could possibly make a summer baby. I was busy with school. I am working full-time and going to school full-time. Ambition is something I have never lacked. Sometimes my ambitions and perfectionist tendancies drive me to do really insane things, striving for achievements that most people would not understand. John was busy as well. He had transferred to SweetBay which is a sister company of Kash N Karry. He was working hard for the stores Grand Opening. We did not have much time to create a summer baby and it was a rough month for both of us. Sooo my period came early... by like 4 days. I was sort of upset, soo much for my summer baby were my thoughts. I normally have 2 days of spotting before my actual period begins... Soo the night I was expecting it to be heavier. IT STOPPED. I was a bit concerned. I took a home pregnancy test, it came back faintly positive. This was the day after Thanksgiving. I took the test again the next morning... and same thing faint positive... but I had began to spot lightly again.
Monday morning I called Dr. Dean. She sent me to her office for bloodwork.. and for an ultrasound. I was pretty much out of personal time at my work. I had 2 hours left. I also had an exam for Spanish class I intended to leave early for on Wed. soo we have a policy where we can make up two hours a week. I was going to be close on this, because I was gone 3 hours on Monday getting the ultrasound. Before I headed to the ultrasound, the nurse did a urine pregnancy test just to see.. and it was negative.... sooo the outlook was not too promising. I was wondering if I was pregant. Did I miscarry? Misread the test? What was happening? The ultrasound was no more reassuring.. I convinced the ultrasound tech to tell me what she saw. Her words were "Between Us, I am not seeing anything". I am really feeling like a hypochondriac.... not sure what is wrong with my body. Why have I not begun my normal period???
Later that afternoon, I got a call from Dr. Dean's nurse Mary. She said I had an HCG level of 22 which meant I was indeed pregant... However that is a low # and my progesterone was very low. When I had miscarried before it was due to low progesterone as far as they could figure...... She wanted me to come back on Wed. to give more blood to see what my numbers were doing. Wed. came and I went and gave more blood. Later that day the phone call came with good news! My HCG had quadrupled to 90! She called Dr. Hayes the obstrician and asked to have her place me on progesterone. I had to go to a special pharamacy and get the progesterone suppositories. I used them last time as well... but they hoped this time I was early enough along they would be helpful. At this point I pray they are right. Dr. Hayes office set me up with an appt. for Fri. I have never been to the dr.s so many times in the same week. I left work early and went for an exam. This first exam was disappointing. She looked inside. Felt inside. touched my stomach... took my blood pressure and did something that was never revealed to me with my pee. In regards to the urine, I overheard the nurse say to the other nurse " Well she wouldn't, she is spotting"... there were 2 cups of pee sitting there... sooo I do not know who she was referring to, but I assumed it was bad news... perhaps another negative urine pregnancy test? The dr. was very hurried with me and asked me nothing that I would deem as important like "Are you on a prenatal vitamin?" "Do you have a cat?"..... The only thing she did say was no strenous activity.... no rollerblading (my specific question) no horseback riding (My specific question... I promised my little sis, I would take her horseback riding)..... She said no sex, the most strenous thing you can do is walk till we know what is going on with you. After leaving the office, I was feeling quite emotional. I had to go from there to a blood lab for more bloodwork... which would leave me a long weekend of anticipation- thinking what is wrong with me? They scheduled an ultrasound for Dec. 14th too. I could not get the blood results till Monday..... Monday morning I call for the results and after much phone tag... The nurse calls me back... My numbers quadrupled again.... From 90 to 501. She told me to make sure I keep my ultrasound appt. I was feeling relieved. As I sit here typing the semester just ended for me yesterday. Today is Dec. 9th. Tomorrow starts week 6. I already have had a nice urinary tract infection... Both my arms are black and blue from the blood work this week. I am feeling VERY Fatigued. I woke up blew my nose and got a nose bleed. My dentist a couple weeks ago asked if I could be pregnant, because my gums bled really bad... like never before.. I think she will be happy to hear of my pregnancy. I will bring this up at my appt. for the ultrasound Tues.
Sooo you must be wondering how John is doing with all this. My guess is he will say I have been a cry baby- whining alot. Hmmm I just asked him and he confirmed what I just wrote. His words were "I am very excited. ready for it to be born already so my wife will stop crying and whining." Then he added that he is nervous, but excited. He has been getting alot of people asking when him and his wife were going to have children... He smiles inside thinking- hopefully soon.
We decided to begin our family. Many readers will be thinking *FINALLY* A couple years ago we accidently tried to begin making our family, but God decided it was not quite time for it... This time we around we are hoping God will bless us with a *Mini-Us*. Most likely if you are reading this then we are progressing well.
We decided to keep this blog as a way to keep everyone up to date, since we have chosen to keep this a secret for a while.... This way of something does go wrong we will not have to share our sad news. We realize the support of family and friends is nice to have, but responding to our friends who did not learn of the sad news is awkward for both us and them. That is how it was last time.... Many times I had to say "Oh, sorry we miscarried... I am doing okay... Yes, maybe next time... Yeah, maybe it was not meant to be...." Sooo we decided we wanted to avoid that... Of course nothing is certain till that moment that I hold this miracle in my arms. I am completely amazed at the process of 'making a baby'. It is truly a miracle any human is born. I must share my thoughts on this, because for so long I have taken for granted the birth process, regarding human life. I assumed I could have children whenever... as if time would somehow wait on me. I know this is not as true as I wanted to assume. We are having problems again this time around... Let me begin the story properly.
I WANTED A SUMMER BABY. Nov. was the last month we could possibly make a summer baby. I was busy with school. I am working full-time and going to school full-time. Ambition is something I have never lacked. Sometimes my ambitions and perfectionist tendancies drive me to do really insane things, striving for achievements that most people would not understand. John was busy as well. He had transferred to SweetBay which is a sister company of Kash N Karry. He was working hard for the stores Grand Opening. We did not have much time to create a summer baby and it was a rough month for both of us. Sooo my period came early... by like 4 days. I was sort of upset, soo much for my summer baby were my thoughts. I normally have 2 days of spotting before my actual period begins... Soo the night I was expecting it to be heavier. IT STOPPED. I was a bit concerned. I took a home pregnancy test, it came back faintly positive. This was the day after Thanksgiving. I took the test again the next morning... and same thing faint positive... but I had began to spot lightly again.
Monday morning I called Dr. Dean. She sent me to her office for bloodwork.. and for an ultrasound. I was pretty much out of personal time at my work. I had 2 hours left. I also had an exam for Spanish class I intended to leave early for on Wed. soo we have a policy where we can make up two hours a week. I was going to be close on this, because I was gone 3 hours on Monday getting the ultrasound. Before I headed to the ultrasound, the nurse did a urine pregnancy test just to see.. and it was negative.... sooo the outlook was not too promising. I was wondering if I was pregant. Did I miscarry? Misread the test? What was happening? The ultrasound was no more reassuring.. I convinced the ultrasound tech to tell me what she saw. Her words were "Between Us, I am not seeing anything". I am really feeling like a hypochondriac.... not sure what is wrong with my body. Why have I not begun my normal period???
Later that afternoon, I got a call from Dr. Dean's nurse Mary. She said I had an HCG level of 22 which meant I was indeed pregant... However that is a low # and my progesterone was very low. When I had miscarried before it was due to low progesterone as far as they could figure...... She wanted me to come back on Wed. to give more blood to see what my numbers were doing. Wed. came and I went and gave more blood. Later that day the phone call came with good news! My HCG had quadrupled to 90! She called Dr. Hayes the obstrician and asked to have her place me on progesterone. I had to go to a special pharamacy and get the progesterone suppositories. I used them last time as well... but they hoped this time I was early enough along they would be helpful. At this point I pray they are right. Dr. Hayes office set me up with an appt. for Fri. I have never been to the dr.s so many times in the same week. I left work early and went for an exam. This first exam was disappointing. She looked inside. Felt inside. touched my stomach... took my blood pressure and did something that was never revealed to me with my pee. In regards to the urine, I overheard the nurse say to the other nurse " Well she wouldn't, she is spotting"... there were 2 cups of pee sitting there... sooo I do not know who she was referring to, but I assumed it was bad news... perhaps another negative urine pregnancy test? The dr. was very hurried with me and asked me nothing that I would deem as important like "Are you on a prenatal vitamin?" "Do you have a cat?"..... The only thing she did say was no strenous activity.... no rollerblading (my specific question) no horseback riding (My specific question... I promised my little sis, I would take her horseback riding)..... She said no sex, the most strenous thing you can do is walk till we know what is going on with you. After leaving the office, I was feeling quite emotional. I had to go from there to a blood lab for more bloodwork... which would leave me a long weekend of anticipation- thinking what is wrong with me? They scheduled an ultrasound for Dec. 14th too. I could not get the blood results till Monday..... Monday morning I call for the results and after much phone tag... The nurse calls me back... My numbers quadrupled again.... From 90 to 501. She told me to make sure I keep my ultrasound appt. I was feeling relieved. As I sit here typing the semester just ended for me yesterday. Today is Dec. 9th. Tomorrow starts week 6. I already have had a nice urinary tract infection... Both my arms are black and blue from the blood work this week. I am feeling VERY Fatigued. I woke up blew my nose and got a nose bleed. My dentist a couple weeks ago asked if I could be pregnant, because my gums bled really bad... like never before.. I think she will be happy to hear of my pregnancy. I will bring this up at my appt. for the ultrasound Tues.
Sooo you must be wondering how John is doing with all this. My guess is he will say I have been a cry baby- whining alot. Hmmm I just asked him and he confirmed what I just wrote. His words were "I am very excited. ready for it to be born already so my wife will stop crying and whining." Then he added that he is nervous, but excited. He has been getting alot of people asking when him and his wife were going to have children... He smiles inside thinking- hopefully soon.
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